pack of hungry wolves

Casa has been sssllooooowwww. Me and the other interns here have literally been sitting around like a pack of hungry wolves waiting for a birth! I caught myself even going as far as stepping out in front to look over the bridge and see if there were any pregnant mamas in labor walking over to the center...Yep, it's pretty pathetic, I know. We had a long & somewhat grueling class today on vaginal exams and cervical assessment. Vaginal exams are done ROUTINELY here on ALL pregnant woman from 36wks on until delivery...I'm disturbed beyond belief. I need to remind myself daily that it's not homebirth though and these woman are not coming here for homebirth type care. I'm trying to remain open as much as possible. All I can say is that I'm so glad that I came here with a firm foundation in prenatal care prior to coming here and even more grateful for my training and experience in homebirth. I cant imagine only having this type of clinical experience and then going off and serving woman at home...OMG!

I trust in women and their ability to give birth with as little intervention as possible. We are not disasters waiting to happen. Babies need and deserve to be born into a loving & safe space where their consciousness is recognized and respected. These are core beliefs of mine. I'm choosing to stay open to what Im learing here and store it away in my brain...some info further back then others!

~Kim